I am not alright The pain keeps me up at night Boiling in me, a dread Of when will I be dead Who am I to say That I will be alright this day Or the next Stuck in this complex I am in a muck Fuck Perplexed by the thoughts in my head Unable to lay in my bed Each night I fret Of the return of the regret That is rotting my mind All that I see is in the hind’ It is stumbling in front Of the way I confront Life And living with this strife I find unbearable What I decide is terrible. ---5/24/20---